I am personally really bad about wearing “busy” as a badge of honor. I want to have a million things going on at all times, I want to end the day feeling accomplished and exhausted, and I don’t feel productive unless I am actively checking things off a list. ⠀
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I have caught myself thinking and saying that I just desperately want to be BUSY. I WANT to work late into the night, I WANT to work 12 hour days, I WANT my job to be a major priority. All because I WANT to feel important and valued. ⠀
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I say “yes” to every obligation, I take on extra work, and I constantly need to have a project to do. ⠀
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Im that person that wants to be pulling all nighters, and hustling, and working myself to the bone. ⠀
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Here’s the thing though, I find that I crave to be busy, but I hate feeling obligated and corned. Which makes me think that I just want to be passionate. I want to desire the work I do, and I want to feel like I’m doing something important. ⠀
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Maybe it’s not so much about doing more, but about doing what makes me feel whole and valuable. ⠀
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Honestly the dream isn’t to work like a madwoman 100 hours a week and be completely burnt out by 30. ⠀
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The DREAM is to make my time so valuable that I can double and triple my current income working half the amount of time. ⠀
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I find that I currently find my worth in the hours I work and the money I make (which is not a great ratio right now). It sucks to face but it’s true, and I want to work towards finding my worth within my own skill set and unique capabilities. ⠀
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Does anyone else relate to this mindset? How have you overcome it? Please share in the comments below!