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Guys, I feel like I’m treading water in the deep-end of a pool rn.😅⠀


Coming from a gymnast, student, and dedicated employee, it’s actually really hard for me to imagine a life where people aren’t always telling me what to do and laying out the next steps for me. ⠀

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Back when I was working on FBL the book, in college, it felt OK because it was a “side hustle”. There was also a bigger, “more important”, immediate priority taking place. ⠀⠀

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Now that it’s an actual business and career path I feel like I’m out in the deep-end of a pool all by myself.😟It’s uncomfortable, scary, and kind of actually doesn’t feel serious or “real”.⠀⠀

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Sometimes it’s hard to think of my work and my dreams as actual priorities with substance — simply because there isn’t someone telling me to do it. Which sucks. ⠀⠀

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I feel so silly saying “I want to write and publish 5 books this year,” but it feels completely normal, and makes me feel important to say that I want to accomplish sales goals at my day job. ⠀⠀

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I always catch myself treating my business like a hobby and it’s been causing this cycle of stress and self loathing. ⠀

When you’re trying to build something based on an idea of only your own, it just feels silly sometimes, and overwhelmingly heavy. Like, who do I think I am? ⠀

There also isn’t a structure, blueprint, or training course that’s going to get you from point A to point B. It’s just a bunch of trial and error until something happens. ⠀

It’s also weird not to have someone telling you what the next goal or project is. Wow... I actually feel lonely because I don’t have someone to please.🤦‍♀️#recoveringpeoplepleaser

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It’s just really freaking scary to be out in the deep-end by yourself, and I know that’s why I keep trying to find anchors to hold on to. ⠀⠀

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However, what I’m trying to work through now is that anchors are meant to hold you in place, and yes, they make it easier to stay afloat and you can just chill there — but treading water is what’s going to get you closer to shore. ⠀⠀

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Anyways, that’s what’s up. If anyone has any personal stories or experiences they would like to share, I would love to hear about what’s going on with you!

© 2018 FUTURE BOSS LADY BY ANNA CLARICE FURREY

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