In the months leading up to the release of Future Boss Lady I spent way too much time starting at my

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In hindsight I know that I was just terrified. I was so scared that everyone I knew would think I was a fraud or unintelligent. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I had invested my identity and justified everything I was doing with Future Boss Lady. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Honestly, the strongest driving force to press that “publish” button was the fear of embarrassment. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ The fear of having to tell everyone that I failed and that all of my time and work was pointless. ⠀⠀ I at least needed something to show for it. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Even when I did send it in to Amazon and took a step away, I felt uneasy and just mentally exhausted. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Then as time went on, day by day, I felt a significant shift in my life. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I held that book in my hands and I saw a direct result of my own hard work and dedication. ⠀⠀ In that moment I felt truly at peace. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I felt sure of myself, I felt justified knowing that I made my dream happen. I flipped through the pages and felt truly proud of what I created. ⠀⠀ In that same time period the storms surrounding my daily life began to fade as well. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ The struggles in my friendships lost a lot of their power over my heart. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I felt a strong sense of renewal in my relationship with my fiancé, and we moved into a season of connection and commitment to each other. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ My guilt for not living up to abstract expectations lessened, and stopped chipping away at me.⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ The questioning, the self doubt, and the self loathing silenced. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Publishing Future Boss Lady allowed me to prove to myself that I CAN do this. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ That even if I’m not the smartest, most popular, most talented person out there, I at least have what it takes to do what needs to be done, and make it happen. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Accomplishing goals isn’t just to make everyone else happy or proud. It’s not just about making money or leaving some kind of legacy. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I think that every success, no matter what it is, opens up our minds and spirits to take on bigger and better things. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ They leave us stronger and with a renewed energy to push on. ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I would do it all again for these results. ✨